The Pause Button

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Ipanema Beach, Rio de Janeiro, Brazil

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i guys, it’s been over a month since I’ve posted my last blog entry. The truth is I’ve opened my WordPress backend a couple of times, more or less out of habit, but have resisted the urge to actually write and publish. I’ve been blogging for the better part of the last ten years, so I kind of forgot how not to.

Usually my unpublished drafts are overflowing, and I get nervous because there are still so many things I want to document and share, but lately I’ve been trying to lose this habit to get some more peace and some clarity. So I got an idea, opened WordPress and closed it again.

And then there were those days or weeks, I may have lost count, that I couldn’t have done anything, even if I tried. It’s hard to explain what’s been going on, it’s complicated and there are so many reasons why it happened. I guess it all comes down to the fact that my body had a big, scary reaction to longterm stress and pressure that eventually landed me in several doctor’s offices. I’ve always been prone to small physical aches and signs whenever I’m going trough a stressful period but they were usually limited to cold sores and headaches. The past few months, there had been some signs warning me to stop, listen, and take a break, but the thing is, sometimes there is no room for breaks. Or we believe there isn’t. Until not taking a break is no longer an option, and somehow the world around you keeps on turning.

So now I’ve taken a big breather. I’m doing the bare minimum, and in one week I’ll be leaving for Cuba for some (more) much needed rest. And who knows, I may be ready to blog again, just a little.

Image from Ipanema Beach from our trip to Brazil in 2013.